Episode 4 - The departure of a loved one.

Even though we only get to meet less than 5 times a year. you never fail to cheer me up with your talks about been happy and the insisting of been 93 years old when your 91 years old . even if it's just 30 minutes of advice. it meant alot. it was rather saddening you didn't managed to endure till your birthday. it may seem so close but yet so far. however i'm rather glad you left peacefully. thanks for everything tai ma. you will always be remembered and keep in my heart. may you be blessed.

Well. yes. even when i looked strong on the outside. i was rather emo when i received the news that my tai ma passed away. but. before that. everything was still rather fine. met up with girl in the morning and walked to school. ended school nicely and went for after school maths lessons before playing some basketball and heading for techview with kc jz and mf. shortly after all headed home while kc followed me to get some psp games. wasn't feeling quite myself even before i heard the news about my tai ma who passed away. emo-ed already. but then had a chat with tracy and jj xiaomei. which kinda give some of the personal views. had durian and breezer and had this hard thinking which led myself to this retarded stupid attitude. give it to my parents, brother, gf. feeling so bad now man. sorry dad, mum, bro and girl.

AHHHH! i don't know what to get for girl's birthday present! :/

As for today. got a message from steph to ask to go hang out a little. and well i did. meet up with them and went over to plaza singapura. anyway. i met melvin! his funny man. seriously. no wonder gina said we going to have lots of fun. yeah right. with two lamers around. LOL! didn't get to watch movie with them. sorry as i couldn't make it for later time slots. had a song ka to attend to. went home at 5.30pm and headed to song ka at Macpersons. caught up with uncles aunts and cousins. and chanted from 8+ to 9+ around an hour or so. and here i am home. blogging. gonna watch harry potter on monday! i can't wait man! :x

Girl. sory about the attitude i gave you yesterday okie? sometimes i just feel like we aren't like so close in real life but like virtually we are that close. even some if they said they don't know we are together. they thought we will be just strangers or just simply friends. it's not that i'm trying to stress things. just want to let you know of how i myself feel. i can understand but with the pressure around. sometimes i just cannot handle things alone. it takes both hands to clap. ming bai mah. i don't wanna lose you. and i love you like i always did. don't take it too deeply k?

alex-